Those of you who know me know how much I love animals, and especially my kitty Fluffy, who I have had for almost 13 years. Since I don't have kids, he has become my baby, and has been such a sweet companion for me all this time. For years, every time I would come home, he would come and find me, and every night when I would write in my journal he would jump up on my lap for a few minutes, and then jump down and curl up in a box on the floor to wait for me to get done. He was so much a part of my life. Here is a picture from earlier this year of him sitting on my desk in the sun, and one of him laying on my bed:
Jan came home and we called the vet. It was hard timing, since it was right before Thanksgiving. They didn't have an appointment time, but said we could admit him for the afternoon and they would run some tests. So we went shopping and had gone over to Emilee's house to cook when we got the bad news. They said he was really bad, and that they could hospitalize him, but that he had a really poor prognosis of getting well. That's when we knew it was time to let him go. He hates being at the vet, and I just couldn't keep him there for days and days knowing he would probably still die.
We went back down to the Vet's office, crying and praying all the way. The interesting thing is, I had listened to a talk by Elder Bednar on the way home from work about the enabling power of the Atonement, and how we can't always change our circumstances, but that we can pray for Heavenly Father to strengthen us to bear our circumstances through the power of the Atonement. I know it seems like a small thing to have a kitty die, but it was an incredibly hard thing for me, and I'm so grateful I had listened to that talk, and was able to pray specificallly for strength.
They gave us some time to say goodbye to him, which was such a blessing--although very hard. Here are a few pictures:
The hard thing was that he was so alert--but when I put him back down after holding him, he could hardly stand, and we knew that it was right to help him go peacefully. The doctor told us that if we hadn't brought him in when we did, we would have been frantically searching for a vet on Thanksgiving--so I'm glad it worked out the way it did. The technician came in, and it was so peaceful--I just petted Fluffy's head, and he laid his head against my hand and went to sleep. It was such a blessing to have it be so peaceful, such an answer to prayers.
We took him to Mom and Dad's house to bury him. It was pretty late by then, but we were able to get some of the family there (I wish we could have had all of them--my family is such a comfort to me!) My kiddies gave me such tight hugs, and Steve dug a hole out in front by the rose bushes (Dad teased later that he would bill us for funeral services, and Steve said that if there was money coming for this, he should get it because he had done all the labor). Mom and Chelle made a "grave marker" for Fluffy out of a stone. Dave and Melissa came with their kids, who gave me hugs and comfort, and Dan and Emilee came, and had made a "funeral program" for me (Dan always has to bring humor in to try to make things better):
(I was going to put the inside of the program in as well, but it had middle and last names of some of the kids on it, so I thought I'd better not)
We had a little funeral service, which was sweet, and I got a picture of me with the kids, and a picture of his little gravestone that Mom and Chelle made for him:
Then we went inside and were talking, and Jenni gave me this note, which was so darling. It made me cry because it was so sweet:
It says, "I feel very sorry for your kitty Fluffy dying. I know it is very sad. I know it will come back soon." Isn't that sweet? It was such a hard day for me, but my family are so wonderful to understand how sad I was, even over a kitty, and did so much to help me.
Today I am still feeling sad, but grateful for so much peace, and grateful that Heavenly Father loves me so much and understands the pain I feel. I'm so grateful for my good family, and that I will get to see most of them today. I really am so blessed!



